[ If he had a nickel for every shoulder bump he got here... he is bumped, stutters unexpectedly, and clams up for a short second before trying to KEEP COOL.
Though the question makes him somber anyways, honestly. ]
I just... have duties I can't abandon. It doesn't feel right.
[ Your lawless world where crime just never stops... ]
Tama believes in me a little too much sometimes. I think.
But yeah... I think so. After all, I'm just picking up after his dream. I've given it my best shot, but I always end up wondering how he would've done things different.
[ Pause... ]
Sorry, this turned pretty heavy. It was supposed to just be a nice walk.
[ the shoulder nudges are continuing, though this time it's accompanied with a little grin ]
Don't worry about it. No matter the subject, it's a nice walk since I'm having it with you. [ stares in love curse. anyway. ] Besides... I get it. I've felt the same way about Sabo. He was a way better brother than me for Luffy. A better person, too. It's hard not to compare yourself in those circumstances, huh?
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Date: 2023-10-12 06:30 am (UTC)Though the question makes him somber anyways, honestly. ]
I just... have duties I can't abandon. It doesn't feel right.
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Date: 2023-10-12 06:45 am (UTC)But you regret having to do them?
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Date: 2023-10-12 10:25 am (UTC)It's more that I'm just not enough at it.
[ Self-consciousness hit him full turbo suddenly. ]
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Date: 2023-10-12 03:39 pm (UTC)What do you mean, not enough?
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Date: 2023-10-13 12:16 am (UTC)But I'm not really doing a good job. Not as much as I want to. Um, it was my brother's dream, initially, and I wanted to carry it through.
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Date: 2023-10-13 04:51 am (UTC)Tama seems to think you do a good job. [ there's a pause ] Is it that you think he'd have been better at it than you?
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Date: 2023-10-13 09:21 am (UTC)Tama believes in me a little too much sometimes. I think.
But yeah... I think so. After all, I'm just picking up after his dream. I've given it my best shot, but I always end up wondering how he would've done things different.
[ Pause... ]
Sorry, this turned pretty heavy. It was supposed to just be a nice walk.
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Date: 2023-10-13 03:15 pm (UTC)Don't worry about it. No matter the subject, it's a nice walk since I'm having it with you. [ stares in love curse. anyway. ] Besides... I get it. I've felt the same way about Sabo. He was a way better brother than me for Luffy. A better person, too. It's hard not to compare yourself in those circumstances, huh?