she struggles a lot with this, and he probably knows that. it's absolutely unbelievable to her that there are people who tolerate her existence enough to keep coming back. it's fucking terrifying. because this is about the point, this is the turning point - this is the longest it ever is. there's a line that she will cross and it will be one more person, it'll be a whole group of smiling faces that turn sour and the worst part is she doesn't know where the line is. she will just walk over it on accident one day and that'll be it.
she runs her fingers over his hat again. trying to remind herself she should enjoy what she has.]
It doesn't feel real, sometimes. [she wonders if this is death, sometimes. if she managed to do what she was going to do before she got here.]
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she struggles a lot with this, and he probably knows that. it's absolutely unbelievable to her that there are people who tolerate her existence enough to keep coming back. it's fucking terrifying. because this is about the point, this is the turning point - this is the longest it ever is. there's a line that she will cross and it will be one more person, it'll be a whole group of smiling faces that turn sour and the worst part is she doesn't know where the line is. she will just walk over it on accident one day and that'll be it.
she runs her fingers over his hat again. trying to remind herself she should enjoy what she has.]
It doesn't feel real, sometimes. [she wonders if this is death, sometimes. if she managed to do what she was going to do before she got here.]