catchall nimona

[selfimmolation]

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[sharkgirl]

[hypocrite!!!]

Nico also told me it makes him tired.

[selfimmolation]

[ that was nico's mistake ]

Get healed tomorrow, then. After... [ gestures ]

[sharkgirl]

[a pause, and then:]

If it's bad enough to do it, maybe.

[selfimmolation]

... Fine.

[ he'll take it. but also he is going to make sure she is clean for trial. stop being paint. ]

w4, SATURDAY

[sharkgirl]

[there is a little girl sitting outside your jail cell.]

[selfimmolation]

[ well. he saw her, and he recognizes her, so-- ]

... Nimona?

[sharkgirl]

[she presses her forehead against the bars, staring at him with tears dripping down her face.]

Ace. [she sounds so utterly fucking defeated!]

[selfimmolation]

[ oh. she's crying and he tears up a little, holding out for her hand through the bars ]

... I'm sorry.

[sharkgirl]

[she wants to hug him, and she tries. she reaches through the bars and she tries to hold onto whatever of him she can.]

You said we had a few more weeks. [she says, her voice breaking.]

[selfimmolation]

... I've been really bad at keeping promises, for a while now.

[ that's his apology even as he's clinging back ]

I didn't want... [ he lets out a shaky breath himself ] I'm sorry.

[sharkgirl]

Why did you - why did you let yourself get caught, Ace.

[she digs her nails in.]

I can't watch you die again, I already - I keep -- [nope, she can't finish, she just starts crying again because she doesn't know what else to do with how bad it's going to hurt.]

[selfimmolation]

I never wanted anyone innocent to die for me.

[ he winces at that, because she's crying. and because he's about to say something awful-- ]

Don't watch it. Tomorrow.

[sharkgirl]

Fuck off.

[she says it and it's kind of screechy, it's almost like not human.]

If you didn't want me to watch your execution you shouldn't have gotten caught.

[selfimmolation]

... Nimona.

[ he doesn't try to tell her not to again ]

[sharkgirl]

[she's holding onto him so tightly.]

... I love you. [she says, quietly, hiccuping.] I love you so much.

[like family, like a brother she never had, like someone who cared about her without taking anything in return.]

[selfimmolation]

[ well. okay, i'm sorry to say that gets him. his breath hitches and he starts full on crying leaning against the bars, as close to her as he can get. it's not pretty, and he's kind of trying to choke it back at the same time, voiceless. ]

[sharkgirl]

[this is such a mess because he starts crying and it makes her cry harder, and she just. she wraps her arms around him as much as she can get, wishing she could get through the bars. it's unfair, it's so unfair, that she can't even hold onto him before she has to watch him go.]

[selfimmolation]

[ here is my only real hug icon that ive never used before now because it felt mean

and now it is mean so anyway sometime in the tears he kind of sounds a little like he's laughing ]

I'm sorry. I know I'm hurting you, but-- [ he's grinning through the tears, half choking on his words ] ... Hearing you say that makes me happy. You know?

[sharkgirl]

[THIS IS THE MEANEST ICON YOU COULD'VE USED AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

she hiccups, when she hears him laughing, but it's not so bad to hear. she wants to hear him laugh, she wants to see him smile, she wants him to have any measure of feeling loved at all before he marches to his death in front of so many people.]

S'okay. [she warbles, adjusting her grip.] I want you to be happy.

[selfimmolation]

... I was. I am. Please don't doubt that. [ ace hasn't led an easy life, but it's never mattered. he's been happy, and he's been loved, and that's the most he could ever ask for. ] Okay? And don't... I know it's asking a lot. But try to be happy after tomorrow, too, sometimes.

[sharkgirl]

[she really, stubbornly, wants to say no, but she can't. she can't say no to him.]

I don't want to. [that's what it boils down to. she doesn't want to. watching her family get ripped out of her grasp - it's like what she said before. it's so much worse when they don't want to leave you.]

[selfimmolation]

... I know. [ it's still wet, but it's at least slightly less... crying. ] But all of you... You still have each other. Don't lose sight of that.

[sharkgirl]

Don't fucking sit in there and give me a hero speech about how I have to keep living, ugh.

[there's no venom to it, though, and she looks like she is maybe eight years old so it's probably kind of just silly sounding.]

[selfimmolation]

[ it is silly sounding, which is why he kind of laughs weakly again ]

Sorry. I know it's pretty selfish of me.

[sharkgirl]

It is.

[she agrees, but she doesn't move. and then, after a while:]

I can't promise anything, Ace.